I've always admired the ones who knew exactly what they want to do in life from an early age. 

I've asked myself over and over again "what do you want to do in life?"

Over and over again I got not much of an answer. 

Everyday it seems like I get up, I go to work, I come home, I sleep. 

I can't help but think, Life Has Got to be More than That!!!

I would be happy if on waking up every morning I look forward with anticipating with the tasks laying ahead. 

I would be happy knowing the things I do everyday helps people to be happier. 

I would be happy when I reflect on the life I had before I die knowing I'm pleased with what I have done during this lifetime. 

I would be happy if the strong yearning I hold comes true, one day. 

And so far, at the rate I'm going, I'm unlikely to achieve any of that. (Gosh that's some deep stuff I'm thinking.. hmm... what has gotten into me!!)

I hear that 30s are much better than 20s because in our 30s we've figured out what we want in life, we become more grounded. In our 20s, we merely race through life experimenting, exploring ourselves and finding out where we fit in. 

And I was hoping that as I approach my big 3 O there would be this magical moment when everything suddenly becomes crystal clear. (wishful thinking huh?) Even though I was thinking such thought, I didn't really expect anything magical to happen as such. 

Little did I know that I would really truly find my calling (WOW....and why would I be surprised anyway? I think life so far has treated me with blessings after blessings...)

I think I found where I want to take life beyond my 30s, more specifically what career path I want to take. 

Rather than calling it a career or a job, I want it to be my life and defining who I am. And I think I've just found that. 

But I can see some riddles I need to get through before I commence on that paths. 

And when the riddles sort themselves out (knowing they will), I can write more on what this magical calling is... ... 

Okay so I'm internalizing some emotions, hence the seemingly random entry I wrote before. 

Anyways... ... 

As I go through the daily newspaper today, I came across this article: Cafe with a Cause

Basically this person is opening a train of cafes to use a commercial mean in order to help the homeless young finding jobs and homes in the society.

I feel this is an excellent idea and an inspiration to people out there who want to make the society a better place for everyone. 

But it is sad to see that this article only occupied a little space on the side of the column on the online newspaper website, whereas political debate, violence, new gadget release and the likes occupy front page headlines. 

So in which direction is social media trying to focus our attention? We seem to pay more attention to having the newest iPhone, different political parties backstabbing one another and yet another innocent citizen has died a grotesque death caused by his fellow citizen. 

On second thought, how can we blame the media, those stories sell, just like sex sells in advertising. Kate Middleton's nude photos made headlines on many newspaper across the globe, why? Because paper sells better when there's scandalous stories on the front page. 

It makes me a little sad to see media has gone the way it has, or rather I should say I'm a little dismayed by the direction in which we focus our attention. 

一切都有安排

如果那一年我走了，今天我就不会是现在的自己。

但是我没有走，因为XANGA的年月积累下无数斑斓的感动，文字像画笔般勾勒出白天黑夜，寂寞的猫咪，慵懒的下午，安静的海边... ... XANGA成了心灵休息的地方，不是幻想。

今天我留在这里，陪伴我的是感恩的心。

I send you love and light, whichever path you take.